Lunch…

It was fun…sitting around in an undisclosed location and watching as my daughter played with her uncle and grandfather. Watching these two grown men acting like fools. She giggled and laughed. I loved it…yet at the same time I was embarrassed as my Dad swatted at the air acting as though he was under her control. Worried about what the people around me were thinking.

That is one of my worst problems, I care too damn much what others think. Peoples whose opinion will have no direct effect on my life and I still give a shit whether or not they think we are weird. There was a time when I tried to shock. There was a time when I sought out ways to get people talking. In some ways I miss it. But I also think that there has to be a happy medium. A middle ground…a place where we can make life more interesting without totally crossing over into the inappropriately bizarre.

Oh well, we shall have to see where the next few months take me.

Editorial Endorsements

I think that Randy has got this one right. Editorial endorsements really don’t have any effect on the votes of the people who have already made up their mind. For those who are unsure, a carefully crafted thoughtful endorsement can sway a vote.

I personally have already decided not to vote for Talent. He lost any possibility of having my vote years ago when he sent a two page reply to one of my letters. The reply contained a number of statements that have since been proven to be false. While I remember that he was simply repeating the information that he had been presented as truth…it bothered me considerably.

Springfield News-Leader has endorsed him stating that his views are most in line with southwest Missouri voters. To be truthful, they are probably right…most people in this area seem to possess views similar to his…I just happen not to be one of them.

Switching Things Up

Went to see the Nurse Practitioner yesterday…we were trying to figure out why I was busting my backside at the gym and still putting on weight, like a squirrel stocking up for the winter. My doctor is switching a prescription around and we hopefully will see some improvement.

I am the first one to admit that I have had PMS since I was a teenager and that it has sometimes made me a bit loopy. Hormones are such a wonderful creation, aren’t they? Some months have been better than others, but overall I have been able to track exactly where I am in my hormonal cycle based completely on my mood and physical feelings. The plus side is that if I wanted to have another child I could probably nail it down to the exact day.

In February of this year I started taking a prescription that was supposed to help me with my PMS. It helped a bit, I didn’t feel so wiggy, but I also became a whole lot less social. I was great at work with the kids, but I really didn’t want to go do anything other than work and play with my daughter. I have missed so much church this year and I really do miss that part of my life. Every once in a while I would go out and get involved in some things, but overall this year has not been a major social event.

So feeling very isolated and not understanding why I was putting on weight like Tim Allen in The Santa Clause, I made an appointment to do a follow-up regarding the medication I was on. I told her that no one should put on thi much weight in less than a year and she totally agreed with me.

Unfortunately one of the known side effects of the meds is weight gain. Supposedly the medication causes individuals to crave and hold onto carbs. This might explain why lately I have really, really had a hankering for the rolls served at lunch. I have always loved bread and knowing that about myself I had limited their quantities in my house. We have brown rice instead of white. We eat whole wheat pasta instead of enriched white flour pastas. We never keep loaves of bread in the house.

Oh well, the meds have been switched and hopefully we will be able to get the PMS under control and knock off this damn weight. Lord knows I am tired of feeling tired.

Strep Throat

I am so tired of strep throat. I am fighting off my second bout of it in the last two months. It’s just plain irritating. Not too mention painful.

Watching my Ghost Hunters right now…well actually, it just finished. I have a real love for that show. My brother got to go see Grant and Jason at a local university. They were in town and did a two hour presentation. He didn’t realize how much I am into the show, so he didn’t know to contact me and let me know that the presentation was going on.

I have been really focusing myself into the earlier path. I have always felt very much at peace when I am open to the older ways. The refocusing process is one that is quite uplifting. Weights are taken off…